Are you proud of your life so far?
Big question, am I right?
Let’s ask something a little bit easier.
What would make your life something to be proud of?
Is it writing a novel that you’ve had planned since you were 13? Is it getting a PhD in the subject you’ve always wanted to? Is it being the very best version of you, you could possibly wish for? Whatever that means.
We’ve all got those BIG dreams and BIG goals, that if we only had 6 months to live and all the means in the world, we would happily fill every single day.
I’ve always thought that being proud of your life meant achieving something GRAND, ABOVE ALL MEASURE. I needed to change the world, bring world peace, solve world hunger and end wars. I couldn’t be proud while living in a city, in the middle of a tiny island, floating around the North Atlantic Ocean. I felt like just another little speck of dust that will, inevitably, return to the ground I walk upon.
Then, I saw something that changed my life in a moment.
It’s not some magic elixir or product that I’m trying to sell you, it’s simply a short video.
I will link it right HERE…
Meet Claire Wineland.
She has Cystic Fibrosis.
Inevitably, Claire will die.
As will we all.
But at 18 years old, Claire believes the only thing we have control over is “whether or not we are proud of our lives”. She acknowledges that we are all going to experience pain, loss and loneliness and how that’s beautiful because it means we’re alive and we’re trying and that’s where the joy comes from. That, we are so busy trying to find happiness and success, goals and dreams OUT THERE, that we forget that we are ALIVE and that is a miracle in itself and should be enough.
We spend such a long time dreaming about the future, thinking about the future, talking about the future, planning for the future and not to say that that’s wrong, it’s not. But we are so easily sidetracked thinking about next week, that we miss what’s going on around us, right in that moment. What is our reality in this present moment?
We are all dealt different hands in life, no ones journey is easy, we all have our own struggles, but when you lay everything out in front of you, that’s what you have.
As Claire asks; “What are you going to do with it?”
Here’s where I am going to get raw and honest;
I have cried my way through 31 minutes and 52 seconds of an 18 year old woman whose learnt what freedom really is, whose learnt to celebrate the life she has been given. Despite difficulties.
For the past couple of days I’ve been trying to write a blog post about my goals while I’m 22. For the past couple of months I’ve despised where I’m at in life. I’ve really struggled because the thought of being a failure and not being ‘where I should be’ by now has felt crushing.
Now for the next 12 months I only have 2 goals;
1. Experience the freedom to celebrate LIFE, whatever may come.
2. Experience being happy with what I already have, in the moment, now.
‘You are never going to be happy with what you get, unless you are happy with what you have.’ – Claire Wineland (2018)